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Saturday, January 13, 2018

Charley horses

Mysterious marks

Charley horse in leg.

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Just walked in the door fed the dog let him outside and lay down on the couch. They are burning me with Direct Energy or frequencies I'm not quite sure what. If I take a picture you will see what looks like a witches no a devils pitchfork and at the end of that is where I'm burned.

Tuesday, January 09, 2018

Morning wake-up

This morning I was called the C word....goes to show the character of these men and women.  I also was able to snap a pic of a hologram on my private area. Victims use your cameras when you feel something. You would be surprised at the pics.

Sunday, January 07, 2018


Saturday, January 06, 2018

They are telling me that I will commit suicide....that is how sick this program is and how unethical the men and women who participate in it are.
Of course they are burning me. I printed out 50 photos to send to senators and different organizations.  Tomorrow I will add the descriptions to them....Monday send them.
I am tired of their burning and torture as I should be after 17 years.

Friday, December 29, 2017

Friday, December 22, 2017


I heard a man say this about this past year. Gaslighting so you don't believe your own truths.
That's the psychological game the NSA and other agencies use on victims only it is for years and years.
702 in the Patriot Act needs to be taken out.

Friday, December 15, 2017

Wednesday, December 06, 2017

We need to get MRI

Tuesday, December 05, 2017

Sunday, December 03, 2017

Saturday, December 02, 2017

This is a picture of the headboard above my head in my bedroom.

This is my back after a night of torture.
This was taken in my bedroom and the small dots appeared once the picture was taken.

Photo of attack on my back

Ceiling in my bedroom

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Enhanced interrogation

There is something about this so called mind control that causes a person to eat excessively when they wake you. When watching TV they knock you out maybe it's only for 15 minutes but when you wake up you are hungry. You may have just eaten before you laid down but you are hungry when you wake up.
Two things for sure sexual assault is a continuation of the abuse along with the targeting of the legs and back. It doesn't matter that they erase most of the torture from your mind because the bruises remain.  Across my back are tiny pin holes that got there by the men and women who participate in this torture.
May their loved ones go through what they are doing to us. Seventeen years of torture including rape and a simulation of a gunshot to the head.  These immoral men and women show their character or lack of on a daily basis.

Monday, November 20, 2017


A person goes to bed to sleep not to have their private parts zapped or burned. Obviously these men and women believe that if the man in the White House can sexually assault women they can do it to.

I think if enough victims are willing to come forward that together we can get some attention.  Who's with me?

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Time for a committee to be appointed to investigate

With all the news regarding sexual assault one would think the NSA, FBI, DEA, DHS would refrain from using " virtual reality " & subliminal suggestions that are sexual in nature. Not to be. Words like C...t, shooting and other phrases are continually repeated by these immoral, ignorant, lack of character government employees.  Less than lethal weapons, drones should not be the tools used against citizens of the United States.  But they are.  Without justification people are tortured for years. Never knowing why they are chosen. We do know that the men and women behind d the torture were chosen for what they lack not what they have.
Quantico has no business subjecting people to " behavioral modification " interrogation without lawyers or any other secret training program.
The victims are just collateral damage.

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Perverts and Control

This morning it was the Nutcracker only the ballerinas were naked. These are some sick puppies that we are dealing with in this country. They make Penn house look like an angel magazine. So this morning I've decided to send the letter out to the Washington Post describing all the things that they've been doing to the citizens of this great country under the disguise of surveillance. I will also fax copies of papers as to how I became one of their victims and offered them photographs to prove that I am a victim. Enough is enough after they put all this trash in your mind then tell you a big fat lie because they think that with sex they can control you and make you believe them. I know this because everything the fat man told me when I first got in this program is exactly what they have done to me.

Saturday, November 04, 2017


I learned something tonight and that was  Ted Kaczynski was an MKUltra victim while he was a student at Harvard. How many lives are they going to ruin before they stop. There are no ethics in this agency or any other agency that uses these weapons and Technology that use enhanced interrogation and behavioral modification. The men and women involved are nothing but scum bags who do not care about anybody but a paycheck.

Wednesday, November 01, 2017

Taking care of a sick person but my crotch is pulsated by perverts.

Sunday, October 29, 2017


Whoever this is it is a shame that they are allowed to play with the woman's private parts and send stuff up their body cavities


Heritage Sunday night and today's trigger words will be" They are looking for you" and "You are crazy". Do you believe they're hired by your government to harass citizens in this country? If they aren't hired by the government who's giving them permission to use satellites and drones?

Wednesday, October 25, 2017


I am not meant to be controlled if I was I would have come with a remote

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

OBVIOUSLY  our government has technology that burns because we know that it's  part of the crowd control weapons. They are not supposed to use it more than  10 seconds before they do any damage but they burn us 20 seconds a minute to minutes however long they feel like burning us until our skin is burned and blistered. So tonight as I lay in bed I realize that's exactly what they're doing to me burning me.

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Stealing Memories

All we want is your memories. This is what they said to me. Sonar that is what they are using.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Wheel of control

Look at you, crazy person. They have to make you feel  small so they can feel big. It goes to their character not yours.

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Saturday, October 14, 2017

Friday, October 13, 2017

Monday, October 09, 2017

Look Alikes

Besides using look Alikes of friends and family dead or alive they block thoughts, make you lose "train of thought " and trigger words. After awhile the trigger words become insignificant.  This morning it was the FBI lied. Of course they do and did. That is the first class they get lie to gather information and to cover up information.  Actually the perverts just wanted me to do something.  I think a FOIA is the way to go.

Thursday, October 05, 2017

Today they burned my face. I took photos and there was a mark on my forehead, red in my hair. Torture

This is the wheel of control. Abusers are what they are.

Wednesday, October 04, 2017

Monday, September 25, 2017

Government Harassment

Not long ago I received a letter from the Department of Homeland Security in response to the FOIA request.
Reply: no records there but Quantico has records. Next move a lawyer to file the next request.

They have once again hurt my back....I need to know what they are doing and why. I don't believe that using a human being without their knowledge or even without their permission for training purposes is legal.

Since I published this to strikes of the back have continued. The mind games continue. The mental and physical harassment never stops and continue along the wheel of control.

This is Quantico

Was laying on the couch trying to watch TV closed my eyes I see this ugly face in my face waving a tiny little light in front of my eyes as though he's trying to hypnotize me.  This is Quantico

Tuesday, September 19, 2017


They are back to hurting my lower back. I have already been to a doctor and I need physical therapy.  I don't think it will work as long as they are striking my back. Last night they were placing a virtual reality scene in my mind. When I caught it they started saying we are laughing at you.  No, you are laughing at yourself because I know what you are doing. Well, you got taken big time by JTH so he is laughing at you.  Goes to your character and ethics.  I can post a few papers to provide the proof of their stupidity.

Sunday, September 17, 2017


Walked upstairs harass begins. Lol they lose because I don't care. They can’t help themselves. This is what our government funds and this is who they chose. These people lack something that most people have. They just don't know it.

Thursday, September 14, 2017


The men and women who participate in the harassment of American citizens while pretending to be looking for terrorist and doing surveillance show their character and what they're made of every single night. They play with women's vaginas men's penises and they get their jollies off doing it. You lay down to watch TV on your couch and you get images of naked men and women and sexual objects all the time. This is what the United States is supporting from the various intelligence agencies in the United States. What does this make us it makes this country no better than Iraq Iran Isis or any other group of people that assault women. This is about character not the victims but the perpetrators.  They act like sociopaths and consider the victims as their right to abuse without conscience. Where does the funding come from? How are they chosen? Sheila is right it isn't for what they have but for what they lack.

Daily new victims are added while some of the older victims have been tortured for 15 to 20 years.  PTSD, ANXIETY AND OTHER SYMPTOMS OF TORTURE HAVE BEEN NOTED.

This is America the best country in the world but it is only as great as our leaders make it. What does it say about us when they  harass  and torture its own citizens? This is not surveillance this is a violation of our privacy and our right to a lawyer when being questioned.  The program is unconstitutional and there should be another Church Committee to investigate just like they investigated  MkUltra as this may be an extension of it.

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

They don't want the truth.

After several hours of questioning, I heard the same voice that said to me 15 years ago "This is what a gunshot to the head feels like" only this morning he said Nobody will believe you it is your imagination. I told the truth. This is how an abuser tries to silence their victims. 
This is what remote enhanced interrogation is about but if you are talking about a crime then why use these words?

There are other methods, sleep deprevaton, rape, threats to harm you or your children. If you could see these people face to face instead of their hiding like cowards then they would be arrested. 

Tuesday, August 22, 2017


Monday, August 14, 2017

Whose Fault

I was just told it was my attitude and my fault that they didn't arrest a terrorist and now it'll be my fault that they don't arrest a counterfeiter. This was said after they sexually assaulted me.

When our government allows the types of abuse that women and children are suffering then we feel no longer protected or the need to protect those who get their jo;;ies off.  The phrase "develment" one that a friend of mine used is a slight against him. I find government whores or people who get paid to act in the manner that these people act should rethink their program and stop the harassment.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Jury Duty

For two months I was told I was going to have jury duty. Last week I received a summons to jury duty. They have done enough. It is bad enough that they tell me what is in my mail before I get it such as yesterday's mail. These peeping Tom perverts should mind their own business.  The night before they attacked my back so badly that I had to take several over the counter meds to relieve pain. Then they dumb you down so you won't tell it. The daily lies, blackmail attempts and harassment will continue if I was a juror. There is no way anyone who is a target can do their duty as a juror.

Wednesday, August 09, 2017


The perpetrators tend two alternate between causing severe pain in my back leaving bruising or sexually assaulting me and when that doesn't work they verbally harass or try to demean me in some manner. I know all about bullying and how abusers treat their victims and that's exactly what this government program is designed to do in order to control you. This morning it was sexual harassment and verbal harassment and the demeaning that goes along with that. How our government thinks this is a program that is good for this country I do not know but I did was say that I would post information to a Washington Post reporter if they did not stop this type of harassment. These are very sick individuals that get their jollies off early in the morning with the sexual attacks and very sick men and women who are out to destroy this country and call it fighting terrorism or whatever the hell they're excuses this week. 15 years of harassment hasn't gotten them anything but post to the Washington Post and this blog entry. Most victims have been through the same thing that I'm going through and have survived it although we've had over 36 suicides in our group. This harassment kept up on an 86 year old woman who was fighting cancer and on her deathbed. It kept up when I lady who was a Target in Philadelphia rented out a room and that man attacked her and murdered her and they watched. If you think for one second that these are honorable men and women then there's something wrong with you they are not honorable they are not at the goal they are not even normal. They were chosen not for what they have but for what they lack.

Tuesday, August 01, 2017

What do you think they are doing? This was taken in my bedroom.

Expert opinion

Taken through my window. What I saw was an ordinary view but what I picked up with the camera was these. On the third photo there was no man or other images until I snapped the photo.

Monday, July 31, 2017

Photo #1 is a photo of the image of something pointed at my scalp. 2. Is the continued abuse of targeting my back. I now have problems with my back that I believe is the result of the torture for so many years.

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

This is the my head during an attack! The lines are hair and possibly reveal the simulation of electrodes.

Monday, July 24, 2017

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Just wondering!

Has anyone else disagreed with a handler that was blackmailing and threatening only to receive pain for their honesty?

Monday, July 17, 2017


I have been denied my freedom of speech because this video will not upload.
When the people who operate as handlers decide to make you want to smoke when you have never smoked in your life that shows how low they will go. When they constantly try to threaten you with non existent threats like "Someone is watching you" "You have a peeping Tom" Your old boyfriend is after you. Then this is the new low. Another misconception is that they are helping you. This claim is to get you to listen to them so they can make you do something.

When they tamper with your vehicle while you are driving that is dangerous. When they try to create a mood that is detrimental to your well being that is disgusting. By using direct energy weapons they have the ability to mentally and physically change you. They can make you appear delusional then nobody will believe what they are doing to you. I am a lucky one I survived and came away from such an attack with no diagnosis of mental illness, no medication and in fact I had a doctor tell me I was normal. Many of the victims were given evaluations of schizophrenia and placed on medications, lost their jobs, broke up their homes and some lost their husbands or spouses.

There is no shame from the handlers. They do not see people as people only as targets. They do not care that they violate your privacy and other civil liberties. They do not care that this is unconstitutional and does not even follow the Nuremberg Code. They just want to practice their torture and mind control.

Night after night I awake barely able to move from their hitting my lower back. They get their jollies off doing this. They are perverts who will sexually assault you while they get their kicks. They have no supervision as our government states it is impossible to monitor what they are doing. Therefore the victims get tortured, raped, sodimized and they have vertual reality visions that they are made to believe they are a part of. They are destroying lives by these programs.

electromagnetic energy?

Tuesday, July 11, 2017


These perverts spent the entire night attacking me. They constantly try to blackmail you by telling you that they will use everything they know about you and put it out there if you tell on them for anything that they do to you. The cover-up of this technology is beyond the norm. The other thing they constantly tell you is that you can't prove what they did. But of course you can prove what they did. There are so many people out there going through the same thing that you're going through that it is impossible for them not to be able to go to court and prove that they are torturing American citizens, trying to shut them up, trying to change their thoughts and memories. Once again they show their character, their lack of integrity, lack of empathy and once again they show that they were chosen not for what they have but for what they lack. No ethics, corruption and oversight abound with this program.

Thursday, July 06, 2017

A must see

This is what they achieved

They said they would change my appearance : they did. I no longer look as I did when the torture and abuse started.
They said they would change my thinking: they did. I no longer see the FBI as honest and I no longer see our government as the best in the world.  In fact any government that would allow any agencies to torture and abuse their citizens without justification and any government that has no intention of using due process on its citizens but instead puts them under surveillance for years and years and years is not the America that it once was. Do not be fooled by all this talk about terrorism and the need for this surveillance system because it is not used for terrorism it is used against citizens in this country. Whistleblowers, Witnesses and potential witnesses.
I have been told these were rogue agents but they're still out there and they're still acting rogue if that's who they are.
People who complain about this are the people that get a knock on their door and threats. Threats to keep quiet. If that doesn't work they try to Baker Act them. This is the new America with these unethical programs and people who operate them.
I am too old to wake up in visions and dreams of being in bed with old boyfriends or having sex with perverts.
I wanted privacy instead I got men and women watching me take a shower, go to the bathroom, and even while I'm sleeping. This is the new America. No better than Russia Iran and Iraq for them this is all common.
If this type of surveillance requires a special warrant, then anybody can fall under that type of Warrant. I know doctors lawyers nurses that have been chosen to be abused and tortured. They want to change your personality not for the better they want to take away everything that you have destroy anything you got.
Many victims have divorced because of this technology. You invite somebody into your home and they also get tortured. I have had people run out of my house several of my friends have noticed that they had the same type of dreams when they close their eyes and they were tortured. I have had children in my home be subjected to sexual assault and abuse. This is what the new America is. Just as Sheila said these people who do this to us we're not chosen because they had something but because they lack something. They get their rocks off by telling you that you can't prove it but take pictures when you're attacked of your head and the area of the body that you're being attacked and you will see the unusual photos when they're in the camera on the screen.  My camera is very low pixels so as I increase the photo I lose what is there when it is small try to get a 14 pixel camera mine is only a 5 pixel.

Wednesday, July 05, 2017


Sunday, July 02, 2017

July 4th

I think about all the good law enforcement,  soldiers and decent people who make this country what it is: then I think about the men and women who participate in this horrible so called surveillance program under the lie that the Patriot Act covers up and I get disgusted at what this country is becoming.

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Weight Gain

I wonder if anybody that is a victim of this remote enhanced  interrogation program has weight issues? It seems that while they are using it either a side effect of it is that you're munching all the time or they are playing mind games that make you munch all the time even when you're not hungry. Some of the people also complain about how it damages their teeth. It is unfair that it is used on people that have not done anything wrong, are not terrorists,do not use drugs and are not mentally ill. So where is the authority coming from that allows any agency to manipulate you or interrogate you without a lawyer? What happened to the Nuremberg code? Did the United States stop participating? 

Now the threats. The victim does or tells something that THEY don't like and the response is a key word or threat. 

Monday, June 19, 2017

Civil Liberties

What this government program of spying on its citizens calling it whatever they want to call it it is very intrusive into our lives. You down on the couch to watch a TV program and they put in front of you and try to knock you out so that once again they can manipulate your mind to be what they wanted to be and not what you are. These men and women who are hired by our government are perverts. Anyone who would participate in a program that destroys the lives of other human beings is very sick. I just tried to watch a TV program and I put a naked man in front of me like give a shit about a freaking naked man.
To think that this all began when I tried to help some local Detectives who were asking me questions about another person and this escalated to me being on some kind of damn list where I became the subject instead of the man that committed the crime is amazing to me period so my advice to anyone who thinks of helping any federal agent think again. It is not worth what you have to sacrifice to get shafted by your own government.

Friday, June 02, 2017


Since victims are subjected to torture and remote interrogation during sleep I thought this would interest them. Harassment is done during waking hours by chattering and other means.

Don't be fooled I to thinking it isn't happening because these violations of civil liberties are the norm now.

These people will make threats like they are talking about someone else doing something.  For example "They will burn up your car". Since vandalizing is also the norm victims are harassed in this manner also.

Thursday, May 25, 2017


A message to those who harass, torture, lie, vandalize and justify it by a paycheck.  YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Same routine

Back to the same routine.  Threats and stinging. Time to contact a lawyer for FOIA.

Saturday, May 20, 2017


The black is when they burn you.

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Maybe tomorrow I can post pics to enlighten you.

Perverts paid by our government

Just had another what I call virtual government based dream. These happen when you are half awake.
This one was me performing a blow job on a government agent. Amazing. Childish and immature as usual. Of course the burning of my private area was part of it.
This program seems to have three main parts. 1. A week of torture and threats
2. Silence for a few hours then a sex attack followed by good cop bad cop.
Just think if any are a potential whistle blower, witness they want to silence, or know something they were illegally doing then you could have years of their unethical, and unlawful behaviour.  This will include cigarette burn imitations on your arms but with permanent scars, names like N lover,  counter operations when you have visitors and even they have been subjected to the sexual assaults even as young as seven. It is 1;52 AM and of course it is the same men and women that put me in a person's house that was selling drugs and weapons. They do not care what type of danger they place you in. They are part of the same scene while pretending to catch the bad guy. Don't ever help any federal agents because they lie and will screw you over.

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Friday, May 05, 2017

Here we go again

Night after night men and women all over the United States are subjected to remote interrogation by the NSA and other intelligence agencies including Quantico.  Many of the victims are like me and after several attempts to get straight answers through the FOIA we have been misled, lied to or ignored.

Over the past two months I have been tortured to the extreme that I have severe bruises on my back and it takes several hours before I can walk normally. I have been subjected to what I call virtual dreams or visions that occur between waking up and sleeping. These dreams make it feel as though you are actually participating in them or they seem very real. Two days ago it was men on a pole dancing. Very funny and it was meant to arouse me so that they could either get their jollies off or continue to ask questions or even try to change my views or thoughts to conform with their philosophies or beliefs. All of which is a violation of my constitutional rights.

I have several drones over my house, some follow me everywhere I go. I am not a terrorist, according to Homeland Security and the FBI I do not know a terrorist. I do not use nor have I ever used drugs and I have NEVER sold them. However, I may be classified as a whistle blower or they have lied to get me under surveillance or in some type of behavior modification program.

I take photos of my back and the bruising is very clear on the photos. This has been going on for many years. In fact I have been subjected to the abuse since 2001.

I am not part of any radical group, cult or extremist group and I certainly am no threat to anyone not even myself. I have no history of mental illness and am not on any medication other than blood pressure and cholesterol.

One of the side effects of the remote interrogation is when you awake you are hungry. This leads to weight gain. Many of the victims receive the voice to skull chatter constantly that mocks, belittles and insults them. This leads to PTSD and anxiety issues among the victims of this horrific program.

When I walk up the stairs I can see a blue or orange light in the shape of a ball at my feet. I see twinkling lights in my bathroom and black shadows repeatedly going back and forth across my ceiling. I have photos of images on my walls and often when I close my eyes I see flashes of light as though I am being hypnotized. This is what the victims live with.

This technology has the ability through the use of low and high frequency pulses to alter your moods and it enables these perverts to place their dreams and porn in your mind regularly. Sexual attacks are part of this program and both men and women along with small children are raped repeatedly.

The behavior of the handlers is despicable and it goes to their morals, ethics and integrity that they subject other humans to this inhumane treatment. Time to see a lawyer about the abuse or at least the ACLU as I believe until the public gets the whole picture we will never be free of this torture. blackmail and threats.